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Politics? what's good? what's bad?

ok now...

libertarianism, socialism, liberalism, communitarianism...

more or less 4 branches to Politics..

A little overview:

Libertarianism is an old fashioned approach where the govt protects their ppl from outsider invaders or domestic criminals who violate ppl's rights. Lots of downsides though such as allowing too much liberty in ppl's private life be it drug use, prostitution, pornography etc. At the same, Libertarians don't interfere with the economy and to some degree, they do ignore values, traditions, religion because they view a society as a whole.

Socialism is the opposite. It's about positive rights such as healthcare, work, shelter, good economy etc. Question is, do such rights really exist? is there such thing as real socialism?

Now comes Liberalism which is in between libertarianism and socialism.

Communitarianism can be moderate socialism or serious patriotism. It's about giving importance to national identity, values, traditions, culture etc and the belongingness to a community. I think the downside of this is when individuals in a community are forced to do things in a certain way without having the freedom of choice.

I'm for a balance of liberalism to protect people's negative and positive rights.

Question is, is there any place that has a political structure that is actually pure in it's nature be it socialism, libertarianism, communitarianism or liberalism. My answer is "nope!".

Suicide Bombers, bombers...

a typical profile of suicide bombers:

approx 50% of the suicide bombers have an academic education, over 80% are single, well over 50% are between the ages 18-23; and the rest under 30.

How does one translate the above? religious upbringing? I think not! parental support for their convictions? perhaps! brainwashing? yep without a doubt. Most of all, it's fighting back against oppression and humiliation from as little as they remember.

Is this escalating? who are the teachers of terror? I can relate to their frustration, humiliation and the sense of hopelessness....

but... how is this linked to Islam? cuz Muslims do it? I wonder if a research was ever conducted on those individuals who bombed themselves to see if they were absolutely sane.

How difficult is it for people to know that suicide bombers is an unacceptable/forbidden practice from an Islamic perspective? how can these fundamentalists preach and brainwash young people about something that is totally wrong? why don't the evil preachers blow themselves up as an example?

how complicated is it to rationalize the illegitimacy of suicide bombing? suicide is forbidden in Islam and harming innocent people, women, children, old people was also condemned in times of war by our prophet moh'd.

I do feel sad for every person who chose to take his life away hoping to make a difference when we all know in reality, it has only escalated and the result is: more lost lives and more to go!

Apart from that, Harriri and eight other people blown away in seconds. What was that about? what was the accomplishment? what a cowardice act! and then these people who do things behind the curtain actually feel like they have prevailed and conveyed a message? why don't they come out to the open? come clean and submit like real men, like real heroes. I wish they would read this and realize what a bunch of pitiable ruthless barbarians they are with a brain the size of a pea. They can only communicate by playing hide ‘n seek, planting bombs and hiding some more.

We’re in the 21st century but men are still behaving like savages in the dark ages! They are doing a great job shaping up our future with blood and hate. It’s a shame to realize that our worst enemy is actually in our country. Your own people are a threat to your life! What an insane world we’re living in?

Aggression today motivated by greed! Yeah that’s what it is all about…

Are they going crazy there?

I read an article not long ago about this new birth control regimen called Seasonale. Yeah, I said "Seasonale" just like "Seasonal" just like 4 four seasons in a year. Yes, 4 times a year!

It appears that, it has the same substances that conventional birth control pills have but this one works with "active" pills for 84 days, then "inactive" ones for 7 days, during which a woman would experience withdrawal bleeding. If you do the math, it equals to 4 periods a year.

Is this not fatal to a woman's health? is it not going against nature? would this not cause a toxic buildup?

I thought birth-control pills were to serve the purpose of preventing pregnancy (ya know, acting as a contraceptive)... now it's for convenience! what a pile of crap! People messing about with nature!

No such thing as coincidences

Is there a purpose for every person we meet in this life? good or bad?

Does every meeting point achieve a little or big something? exchange ideas? something exciting and fulfilling? to learn something new? to influence? to motivate? to make a difference? to hurt? to provoke?

I'm so hooked on the idea that there is a reason to every interaction, conversation or even silence between two. There's no such thing as coincidences.. there IS a reason people! where someone meets you, hurts and teaches you a lesson or someone who draws a smile on your face stretched from ear to ear to bring comfort to your aching soul.

I learn something new every day. My sensations have become more intense, my perceptions are deeper, the puzzle is completed, music breaking the silence of the world, the palm trees reaching for the skies, mountains peak through the clouds, a pen dances on a paper leaving a trace of art, leaves on the streets leave a great symphony of choas and children on the streets dancing like popcorn kernels.

Yes... I'm inspired today. Met a stranger, a total stranger, I don't know from Adam...I'm telling you people, there is a reason to every interaction in this life.

another random thought

I've been under the water for a while breathing from a little cylinder.. time to get on the surface of spring and flower like trees do. Enough for me the drama, I need some true action, at 27, one cant waste time. God doesnt wait and neither do I.

I call for God's love in the shape he wills and a human form is due for me..again cause I've been living in hunger, mental and spiritual hunger. Now I open my heart, mind and arms for real love and ALLAH will protect me from my passion I know it.. he will reward me for my honest passion...god will give me food for my hungry hands and eyes...!

Thoughts.. depth..

I can't stop thinking today nor can I stop typing.. that's what I love about this space.. being the annonymous me, the masquerader and voicing my thoughts through simple text.

What a delightful feeling!

No name, no face, no expression except my very thoughts!

I'm in such a mellow mood...

tab'billy shwayeh...sing us a song you.. the piano man!

me.. just the mellow girl..somewhere between cheezy, loungy, groovy, jazzy..

did that genius just deplete all adjectives for mellow?

can his words woo me into a web? is he sparing me that? If I fall into his web, will he mentally pull my mind towards him.. a little pull from his words and then I will be into deep.. then I may be knocking on his door.. dont do that please, just wrap your words, hide them and then use them..easy huh?

is he a conqueror? or just someone who can express himself well?
does his transparency show through? is it just passion? no conquest of any kind...! his words washing the windows to their houses and they look outside and there he is.. naked like the truth.. feeling feeling feeling..

It's so strange how thoughts from no where come when I listen to a song in a language I don't even understand. Listening to Christina Aguilera's song called El Baso Del Final. Movement of a few strings on a guitar, a bit of base, a bit of light drum beats and it takes my mind to place.

Feelings..but then even feelings are a state of mind and poooof reality check. I sometimes try to figure out the difference between my reality and the real. Do we all eventually seek for something deep and meaningful? well excluding the shallow superficial people. I suppose some people dont give this the time of the day. I seek for depth whether it's something I read or watch on tv or a discussion with a friend or when I look at a stranger or even when I look at the aging lines of an old man.

My new resolution: to speak my mind, tell what people what I really think and feel, if it's something not nice then why waste my time and breath when I can make better use of my time unless of course, I am making a difference; to better someone. I just sometimes think I don't have enough time in my life... to do the things I want to do, to tell people the things I want them to know, to share a bit of me with the world, to spread the seeds of my kindness and make a difference in people's lives no matter how small and invisible it may be to the outside world.

Back to him.. what is he about? why after 3 years he tells me I have a very strong presence.. telling me "remember when I first saw you I trembled like a bantalone manshour 3a 7abl el ghaseel". He was hyperventilating and I asked him to stop and breathe. Then he tells me online "I meant to just mention the presence aspect of your character that I like, even on the net".

Ok, not sure where all this is coming from.. maybe it's just the song.. maybe this is all just a fantasy!

ever heard of slavoj zizek....?

A little intro about him.. he is a colorful lecturer who has written many interesting controversial articles. I've read a few of his writings and I intend to read every one of them. Easy to read and it appears that his work truly hits the reality of what goes on in our sad world. I sometimes feel that the human race will come to an end before judgement day at the way human beings are torturing one another or we will regress and become vultures of all shades, sizes and madness.

I read his article today on "culture of torture". He wrote about Saddam's Information Minister which we all remember as the comical minister. That hero who claimed that the US tanks on their streets was just a hollywood special effects and that he supposedly failed to ever make sense although he did many times especially when he said "they are not in control of anything, not even themselves!". Now keep that in mind as you read the rest of my blof. Funny how some things sometimes hits the hard truth. That line in particular reminds the writer about what went on at Abu Gharib prison last year.

I'm sure many of you have seen the photograps of the Iraqi prisoners being tortured and sexually humiliated.

Isn't it ironic that the US soldiers, the "Americans": who supposedly fight for democracy, freedom and personal dignity conduct themselves in quite the opposite way? Not all Americans, but those US soldiers ... many of them and what they did to the prisoners was like bad cops planting evidence for a crime.

funny, how everything was kept hush hush although the Int'l Red Cross kept sending reports to the US authorities of abuses at the prisons for months

...and when they had to confront the reality of what their soldiers did, their explanation was that their soldiers were not properly taught the Geneva convention! feed that bullshit to a rat...

... forget soldiers but wouldn't any humanbeing know that sexually humiliating another person is simply wrong? is it not common sense?

I personally would rather have Saddam's regime brutally inflict pain and physical torture of every kind on me than psychologically and sexually humiliate me.

What kind of animals are these soldiers to be smiling pathetically and posing around naked men?

is this really a picture of the American popular culture?

or this arrogance towards 3rd world people?

To make matters worse, Rumsfeld actually admitted that there were stronger things such as videos of rape and murder!

It's crazy how anything can be changed in the US. They issue a secret memo which had additional procedures (psychological torture) to keep their operation under control? Geneva Convention out of date a couple of months before the torture of the prisoners were out in the media? what a pile of crap! they might as well kill people than make them the living dead.

Is this the kind of American values that the world should learn?

I wonder! sorry but I had to vent!

Diagnosis "Liar"

Diagnosis "Liar"

Lies that display mercy to agony and soreness
Lies that preserve sense of dignity and seemliness
White lies, old lies, black lies, colored lies
Unusual traces of desolate lies, it never dies
A demon, a small demon
Smoking in the car
Messing with her head
Trapped within her
Abrades her inside
Sitting, writing in agony
The demon of lies and deceit
She screams,
Pinning it down
Some lies are justified, some are rectified
Told out of kindness, told out of blindness
Everyone is a liar, nobody can get higher
Hold her chin up, or just stick it up
Embellishing her stories with far too much detail
Emotions come back and it’s all plain black
She chases them away and it’s just another day